the post without a creative title

OK - So I am having a hard time writing. I thought I started this to clear my head and air things out, but I am constantly waiting to write an entry until I have something totally great to say or fantastic new pictures to put up.

I do not have either of these right now.

Sometimes, I just feel completely overwhelmed. I have made this huge decision in my life. Dion is 100% supporting me. I study, I practice, I take tons of pictures. I spend hours every night pouring over books, editing and reediting pictures just to get it right. Sometimes I think I have improved, then go take another look at other forums I'm in and get put back in my place. I sometimes feel like it is just never going to happen..... *THAT* shot is elusive. The major confidence boosting.... now you're getting it shot. And I feel slightly defeated.

There is just so much to learn, so much to know. And with kids - time for myself is few and far between. And the late night/early morning sessions are taking a tole on me.

But I think I have finally found my style. And that is a HUGE step. So now that I have discovered my style, I'm starting over LOL. I want to have Crisp, Clear, Bright pictures. It is not everyone's style, but that is going to be my style. I love it. Hopefully others will too if I wanna make a business lol. The biggest part of this is crisp and clear. LOVE IT!!!!!! So this is my newest step. Can't wait to get going on it.

I also have a belly-to-baby session lined up. I am so stoked!!! I have so many props ordered, still searching for a few more random things, hopefully I'll have it all together for this lovely lady. I can't wait!!!!! I am so nervous, but after I check her house out next week I'm sure I can make the plan of attack.

So - to beat the blahs........ Dion and I are going away this weekend SANS kids (first time ever for me) to Banff. I'm turning 30!!!!!!!! YIKES!!!!!! So we're going with Don and Crysta. It's going to be great!

I don't really have any new pics, because all I have been doing is reediting - but here's a couple of the kids being kids for all you fam that read this!

The kids doing their thing. This drives me CRAZY...... but they love it. It is also really messy.

There is no place to try to *get* your flash than in a nastily lit bathroom. Never thought I'd be glad for that LOL!!!!! The kids actually LIKE getting their pics taken there. 2 for 2!!!

This has become one of my fav things to photograph. Hopefully I'll be doing some different camera and flash settings and be able to show the results! I do love my flash (now that I know more how to use it) :)